Dealing with Disappointment

Today, I guess I have experienced a really up and down day.  When I go to work in the morning, I was really really happy and joyful.  Even though Wednesday is supposed to be my busiest day of the week, I was still handling everything with a peaceful and joyful heart.  Everything comes so easily.   I could even have time to go out for lunch.  I have eaten a delicious chicken donburi at a small Japanese restaurant.  The sauce is just nice!!  After work, I have earned the opportunity to interview for a job opportunity working for a magazine called Angel Heart.  I was really excited about the chance to dedicate my work for God.  To do sales for a Christian magazine would be a really valuable and meaningful experience.  However, it turns out that this full time job opportunity is actually half for angel heart and half for something else.  I really cannot help my disappointment.  Dear Father, I am so sorry! I should be thankful that you have answered my prayer.  i should be happy that you have protected me.  However, because of my own will, I did not obey and is not willing to accept the fact.   Please help me to work through my disappointment.  Please help me understand your will.  Allow me to obey and see your plan on me.  Allow me to follow your footprints.  I am not afraid because I know you are with me!

Today...I saw this online and think it's really meaningful...Have we ever really calmed ourselves down and give some private time with God?  We might answer Yes Yes Yes very quickly... However, how true is our answer?  I honestly don't think I have given much private to sit down with God.  It's been a while since I can dedicate 100% of my focus to chat with my Father! Dear Father, I am so sorry!!!  You must be waiting so badly for Idada to chat with you lah!!